hi. just a forewarning.
i'm a cancer, I wear my heart on my sleeve.
I swim in my emotions & I make my decisions based on how I feel.
everything in my world is magical, I like to make it that way.
i'm also a singer/songwriter.
therefore, I express all day, everyday.

this is who I am.

I may fall into the pool of love ..
I may fly into the sky of dreams ..
I may spin around & dance into the wind of hope ..

you may hate me or think im too fake.
not real -- "she's such a naive, dreamy gurl who has yet to realize the harsh truth."

think whatever makes you feel secure,
because afterall .. security is what we all crave.

in the end, we are all just souls looking to find our way ..
looking to find our own piece of happiness.

-- -- --

when I love, I truly love.
since i'm falling into this beautiful state,
my entries will start to penetrate the strings of the heart ..
if you're with me -- please enjoy.
if you're not -- may you become inspired by the light.

p.s. _lovelyric is a fake!

go give her hell for trying to be ME!!

♥ to all who already had my back!

taken from my angel elchino

Post your completely honest opinion of me as a comment to this entry.
Post anonymously if you prefer (U PUSSY), and don't feel afraid to say whatever.
I want you to be brutally and completely honest.
Write as much or as little as you want, but if you're reading this, I want you to comment.
Once you're done, put this in your own journal.

cheer me up.

tell me something that is making you extremely happy right now.

I want to be reminded of the good things that life is bringing my friends.

here's the link to listen to it.
I uploaded it onto my server.

http://www.vanessa-marie.com/letmeloveyou.mp3

^ let me love you, by mario

I just can't get enough.

i'm really diggin on ( this.. )

since I'm such a fan of lyrics & the emotion of a song...

comment with your favorite lyrics or at least part of them..
& include the name of the song & artist.

im curious to see what you guys dig..

thanks in advance :)

I have tons & tons of astrology books.
yea i'm a nut for this stuff, what can I say.

but I decided to randomly pick out characteristics from each of the signs, that either you did or do not already know. please comment and let me know if you agree on whatever sign or not. this is just for fun, because i'm in that kind of a mood ♥

ARIES

- they have a beautiful, almost charming way of leading with their chin. if someone tells an aries NOT to go somewhere, the aries will want to go there. when it comes to food, when no one else wants to try a certain food, an aries WILL try it.

- aries are very inquisitive. so when you tell a "knock, knock" joke, they HAVE to ask "who's there?" even if they don't want to. they also laugh with you always & they even have the ability to make a joke out of their own embarrassment.

- they need their own space- but it is usually their own constructed space, which is different from other people. in other words, they get very territorial. they just have to have their own little place that is theirs to hang up their own stuff.

TAURUS

- taureans are very poetic in their speech, which seems contrary to their sign. they always sound like they are going to break into shakespeare. they can think of 16 different ways to say something beautifully.

- taureans are the type of people who will take your advice saying "thank you very much" then go and do things exactly the way they were doing it before. a taurus can be led, but never pushed.

- taureans are usually very sentimental. they never forget birthdays, anniversaries, and so forth. first thing in the morning they'll say, "do you know what day it is?" strike up the band- it's someone's birthday!

GEMINI

- geminis use their hands more than any other sign. they are very expressive and are always motioning with their hands and feet. they also have a tendency to watch themselves a lot. they're always concerned about their pose- and their poise.

- geminis can change loves, careers, and geographical locations, and be perfectly happy with all of it. they are the wanderers of the world. you will find that geminis infrequently stay in the same location where they grew up.

- geminis are fun, and you want to have them around you. they are the exuberant sign of the zodiac, and nothing bothers them. they could be 58 years old and say "let's go to the amusement park."

CANCER

- cancers view life almost too mystically and romantically. no matter how old they get, they really love love. it does not come easy for them to speak eloquently, but they can write very well.

- cancers are very selective. they do not have a massive number of friends during their life. if they're honest, they will admit to having just one true friend. a lot of their love, time & energy is devoted to their family.

- if you hurt a cancer, you'll think you've committed a cardinal sin. when you hurt them, they do not slap back at you. instead they give you this "you killed me" look, that makes you feel extremely guilty. when you ask them what's wrong, they'll say "nothing" yet 4 days later they'll say "remember when you said blah, blah, blah- well it hurt my feelings."

LEO

- leos can spot flattery, but they can also accept constructive criticism. leos will barge into a conversation because they're so afraid of forgetting something. and don't leave leos in the dark about anything- they don't like it at all!

- leos are very intelligent, they know a little bit about a lot of things. this makes them great conversationalists- they love parties. there is nothing more attentive than a leo who feels you have something to say.

- leos hate to lie, and usually they avoid it at all costs. god help you if you lie to a leo. they take this as a personal affront and this sets up a vicious circle, because then you tell more lies to the leo so that you don't get into more trouble for the first one.

VIRGO

- virgos like everything in its place & they feel that they must finish everything. if they start making a dress, they have to finish it that night. it doesn't matter if the sewing machine aggravates everybody- they feel you ought to know they must get it done.

- virgos are promiscuous, but they have a prudish exterior. they are very sexually orientated, but they have an immense ability to sublimate this sexual energy. they can redirect it. they can also love multiple people at the same time, they love totally.

- if you give a virgo a compliment, their eyes fill up as though they want to cry. you don't know if you've said something right or wrong. anything romantic or sentimental sets them off. also, they always get the chills.

LIBRA

- libras are secretive. you don't always know what's going on in their heads, if they tell you something, you may say, "you have told me everything, but I still feel that you're keeping something from me." they leave you feeling as if there's a part still not understood.

- libras are lovers of beauty. they can become very enamored with beautiful furniture; and anything that is created in an artistic fashion. they also will always want to kiss and hug you if they love you, they are more sensual than sexual tho- beauty will turn them on more than a roll in the hay.

- libras have the ability to cut through the fat of an argument or a comment and get right to the heart of the matter. if you compliment a libra, they appreciate it, but they really don't take it to heart, so it's lost on them. apple polishing is not effective, because they don't know what to do with it. you can butter them up, but it won't faze them.

SCORPIO

- scorpios really want to change things- they want to change the world. they don't really want to change their homes, they want to change their community. they really take charge of things too, they want to be the head of anything they can.

- scorpios are fastidious cleaners. the amazing thing about this tho, is that they will clean the hallway, but not their own room- so the hall will be nice for someone walking down it, but their room might be a nightmare.

- scorpios are tremendous teachers and they love to be educated, so you'll find them going to school for 5,000 years. they make great pharmacists and are often involved with medicine. in fact, if you tell a scorpio what medications you're taking, they'll go and look at the bottle. they might not know what it is, but they want to look at it anyway.

SAGITTARIUS

- sagittarians love children and are very concerned about them. and if anyone cries around sagittarians, they will immediately melt. they will crumble. you don't want to cry around them because they'll get more upset than you are. they bark ferociously, but drop one tear and they usually say "I didn't mean it."

- it is never boring to be with a sagittarius, and I think what makes it all worthwhile is that they are so witty and so marvelous to be around that people usually migrate to them. they always have a group of people congregating around them.

- watch sagittarians buy something. they can have a fit around anybody they're buying a car or house from. they'll ask every question in the book & go through everything with a fine-toothed comb that eventually the the person just says "here, you can have it, I don't care!"

CAPRICORN

- capricorns are totally analytical about everything. they will correct you on things you originally said exactly the way you said it the first time. they also have a tremendous retentive memory. if you ever cause anything bad with them, they will name the date and the time you caused it.

- if you show a capricorn beyond a shadow of a doubt that your way is better, they will totally do it your way. if you get them to believe in something, they are usually believers for life. they continue to be into something long after everyone else is sick of it to death.

- capricorns are immaculate dressers. they have a beautiful way of knowing what colors go with what. they also are tremendous spenders, if you show them something new in a store, they'll buy it.

AQUARIUS

- aquarians prefer to be with more than one person. they will say "let's go see so-and-so." they play much better to a crowd than one on one. they always want to entertain a big group, give them the spotlight and they'll go to town.

- aquarians can suddenly get mad at you for something you said 2 years ago, and its finally dawned on them. they don't have a "file cabinet" mind, but they can instantly get mad at you. and anger builds up within them over a matter of time. you'll already be over something, yet they'll tell you about it 8-10 months later. you wonder why they just didnt get mad at you when it happened!

- aquarians will write letters about things they don't like. they write a lot of letters, and they'll want to know why you didn't write one too. if they don't actually write a letter, they'll write it in their mind.

PISCES

- the most striking thing about a pisces is their eyes. you look into a pisces eyes and you think you've seen eternity- its as if they are luminescent. they also have a disconcerting way of staring at you. you keep looking at them for approval & they'll just stare. it normally doesn't bother people tho, because their eyes make you believe they see your soul anyway.

- pisces are very intellectual as far as sexual relations are concerned. they love all the courting. they don't want it to stop- ever. they are so romantic, even after 15 years of marriage, they'll still put on their best clothes and want to have a candlelit dinner with you.

- pisces takes lots of notes. they never want to miss a word. if they miss a word, they'll turn to the person and ask for the whole sentence. if you tell them something, they'll write it down & quote you.

I hope you enjoyed all that.
it took me forever to write.
but seriously.. I wanted to share my knowledge with ya'll :)

enjoy your day.

my boy beymar from miami gave me his jill scott : live cd, because he said that she always inspired him. after watching me perform, he said that he felt the same vibe with me. that touched me. jill scott has a way of getting to the root of everything. her soul is unique & her words express that. I put her cd on earlier today & started singing.

I recorded a bit of her song :: getting in the way.

you can listen to me here :: ♥

You're gettin in the way of what i'm feelin.

Sista Gurl, I know you don't undastand,
but you gon' have to undastand he's my man now.
What you had is gone. Our thing is sweet.
Our thing is stronger than any lie you can tell on me.
He knows my heart. And thats a part.
Ya roots are dug up so you might as well just give up.
I see your intentions. You can't handle the truth.
He let you go a long time ago now it's time to turn him loose.

You're gettin in the way of what I'm feelin.

damn, I love this song.

I used to love to get on aim.
I hate it now.

I don't know why?

I think I'm slowly becoming anti-social.

[gasp!]

Hey everyone, Im actually having my roomate type this as I speak. Earlier this morning I was attacked by a German Sheppard and I suffered severe lacerations to both my ankles, my hands and my arm. My parents ae coming down to see me, Ill be at my grandmothers to heal. There is no internet connection so it will be a while before I am back on. I cant type or walk.


Ill keep you posted on my condition. Love ya and pray for my recovery.

wow.
im in awww yet again.

if you have a chance check out club space's website. this is the club im performing at.

http://www.clubspace.com

look @ the pix and tell me how nervous you are for me!!

oh + I found out the other performers that are going to be there the night I perform..

Armand Van Helden, Seb Fontaine, Bad Boy Bill, Junkie XL, D:Fuse, Max Graham, Dieselboy, DJ Rap, Reid Speed, Richard Humpty Vission, Adam Freeland, Hyper, K-Swing, Evil Nine, SUPER JANE [DJ Heather, DJ Colette, DJ Lady D, DJ Dayhota], DJ Micro, Oscar G, Boris, Exacta, Alex S

its no wonder this event is $120 to get in!

[dies]